To be very straight forward,i will be 27 this month and i still have no idea about what i really want to do in my life!I can say that i am still exploring about it or rather i am very confused about it.I really don’t have a dream that i am putting efforts to!It was the same from my 20s when i joined college.I am pretty lucky to have fortunate things in life,i do love my days..but then there is no such long term purpose in life for which i have spent sleepless nights.so finally i decided to take it up seriously..
I imagine myself as an individual with multiple dreams,aspirations,doubts and confusions..All tangled up wires!Now when i sit down and command my brain to point out what i exactly want to do in my life,my brain acts bizarre!I end up with more confusions and this time a little sad,as i am realizing that i couldn’t figure out a dream for myself all this years.
My mind come to rescue and we try to figure out what i don’t want to do in life.Now as i count on this,many wires gets untangled,many vanishes.Thinking a lot more on it made me realize what i should do in life to avoid those ‘dont’s in life’.This logic attracts me a lot and i am trying to go with it.
My pathway is not lighted,but i can see the spot at the end of the tunnel.Now that is what i really wanted.Something to start with..Now probably i can build on it!.As i start walking i will slowly explore..and this time no confusions!!
I had earlier written about this idea of “Thinking what you don’t want matters”.This thought is helping me a lot in confusions, demanding more attention.Hence picked it up again.
So,When you have no idea about ‘what you want to do’,start with trying to understand ‘what you don’t want to do’!Then You will find some clues,building on it ,you will find your DREAM.The real one.
That is the trick.
Now this is an internal struggle!!
So unless i start doing something–>((For now write something everyday)) i cannot tell you that “MAGIC COMES FROM WITHIN”
Well there is long pathway between the thoughts and the actions:-)
And the “Magic” ..it follows some scientific laws that unless you “DO THINGS” it cannot show up!
So this time i am determined!
The plan–I will write something everyday and post it here!
*Backed up with lots of laziness, incompetencies and hell lots of other history…But this is a Breakthrough!
A friend of mine was shifting to a new city for his first job, and few days before his travel when I asked him about the packing status he replied “The Big trolly bag its done, and the back pack I need to fill it up with the memories”.
Memories??Memories of what kind,Any books? I asked
Its 3 notebooks and an old mobile phone and stuffs like that! Understanding that its not the proper time to go behind the stories in old notebooks and mobile fon I filled the conversation with another couple of questions.Later when I got a chance I asked him,”Whats the story with the old modile phone,why you are carrying it with you?”With a lil hesitation ,he replied that its because of the few memorable things in the mobile phone. From the conversation all I understood was seeing his notebook with memoirs, messages in phone, photographs and souvenirs invoked beautiful memories of his loved ones. And these memories are nothing but happiness to him and he lives with it. Will he forget them in the hurry burry as he starts living with the pace of new city,the bussiest one? Will he be still thinking about his memories when he have busy work schedules and other entertainments??I don’t know.But then if he ever feels lonely he has his recipe of finding happiness with those memories. mmh..I don’t know how many of us will ever find time to dive into memories, but those who do might be having a great time..
I remember another friend of mine who had a frame hanged in his room with columns to keep pictures. In its left there was his favorite professor’s smiling image and on the other column lied Rumi’s quote -“Out beyond ideas of wrong doing and right doing, there is a field. I ‘ll meet you there.” Although the professor was no more here, his memories and the thoughts always stayed up with my friend. “That frame in my room radiates a lot of light” I have often heard this from him.Yes.. Indeed memories are a treasure ,aren’t they? They are special..it is the only place where we can cherish our loved ones who left to heaven. We do cry thinking of them, but in other hand their memories are inspiring and rejuvenating.
Good Memories of people, beautiful events and good things done is something that needs to packed and remembered.. They just radiate energy! In abundance!!
We all do have lot of them in our life,but then with time it goes into oblivion. Don’t Let it fade away. Pack them ..:-)Pack all those good memories and carry them where ever you go,and make yourself remember that you had a good life with beautiful moments in abundance.all those small and big events and gain inspiration from it to make a hell lot of them today!
lets do more good things today so that we will cherish them as beautiful memories tomorrow ..Before we die,lets have big trolly of looooooots of good memories!Can u just imagine yourself with a yellow skybag on wheels while walking all the way to heaven with angels??Haa..that’s to childish I know! Anyway ..lets Make more memories in our life that Lights up our mind!
It was around 7.30 pm and we(3 girls) were walking back to hostel after the movie. What made us to walk instead of booking a cab or catching the metro? Our love for long walks,conversations and lil craziness. It was around a 1 hour walk.Adding to our craziness it started to rain heavily!!The 2 umbrellas where of no use as the wind was whirling. But we didn’t had any problem,we sang songs laughed loudly, walked and reached the hostel on time. We really had a good day, long walks and conversations with your friends are one of the most beautiful things that can happen on earth. Both of my friends slept early that day and I was all by myself on the corner space of our room ,staring at the stars through the window. I was having random thoughts in my brain and then I managed to hold them to do a retrospective of the day that just went by.
I was rewinding the things that happened. The 3 musketeers and the night walk was a highlight.. What if one of us might had an accident? what if we were kidnapped, what if some electricity short circuit happens with the thunder ..what if we die on the way back while walking at night and the most terrifying thing was what if our parents come to know that we were doing this! All blame would be on us for our crazy idea of walking to hostel than booking a cab. Now I got lil scared with what we did before. Now I knew why one of my friend said that she never imagined that she would be walking at night through the streets enjoying the rain and wind like this.
Thank God nothing happened, but this thought kept disturbing me.Two things are scary 1. Something bad happening 2.Bearing the blame for something bad happened because we were in the so called ‘wrong time’ in the ‘wrong place’.
“Now that is really sad”I said to myself. Every time when some cruel and bad news comes up I say the same. I think of them in my prayers and to an extend will go for protest asking justice for the victims. That is it. Sad
some where an inner voice was speaking “we all need to be a lil more good,kind and helping. Lil more good that our goodness gets reflected in our communities and our profession makes an impact.Lil more good that we accept and respond to the social problems as ours before until it actually happens to us. Lil more good that we find time to teach our kids the same stories of being kind and helping each other. This world need more people to realise their goodness within, to shine and radiate their energy!”
mmh..That is true i thought.and the voice continued”Lets work for a world, where we wont be afraid of war, getting robbed, kidnapped, raped or killed..A beautiful world where peace and happiness sustains.”
Lets walk watching the stars in the night sky ..Lets feel the rain and go with the wind and Lets not be afraid..
“Sun is brighter”
“Yeah..But i will be the Moon in your life”
“But Why Moon?”
“I can be there with you all the time.When it is dark,remember i am always there for you!”
“I love you sooo much Papa” the lil girl cried and hugged her dad.”I love you too..darling”he lifted her in air and she smiled.
Many years later..when she faced any problems,confusions or trouble she preferred to sit alone.Her dad would always talk to her from heaven.His ideologies,thoughts and beliefs guided her well.
Some Promises are kept alive beautifully beyond our understanding.That is the power of love.That is the magic of Relationships.
Sun is brighter and makes us happy but fails to stay up with us all the time.But the moon may be invisible at times,but manages to be with us all the time being happy for us!
To all the Moons in our lifes..Thank you:-)
One afternoon she got a call from Amazon saying she has been selected for a surprise gift this month for being a regular purchaser from amazon(Thanks to her avid book collection, all bought online!).The customer care person from the other side explained her about the gift she has won! “You can choose from any of our 2 gifts madam”, he continued “Either a Laptop or a LED TV.” Soon came her reply in her soothing and happy sound “I don’t need any big gifts, Thank you for your time”. The customer care person at the other end was lil more surprised with her ‘NO’, not even a question about fraud check or further clarifications, he wondered! He tried to persuade her again, “We are offering this gift to only 2 customers and you are one among them”. listening patiently to him, she replied “If that was your product I would have considered, but Gifts..I don’t like to have it from others! I gift myself whatever I need everyday, and that’s the key to my happiness. Would you like to take away that?” she asked in a playful manner.”Sorry madam, have a good day”. She wished him back and disconnected the line!
We all BUY things for ourselves.. but Some people always GIFTS themselves whatever they need! and they have more ‘care’, ‘kindness’ and ‘love’ in their list than ours. Because they treat themselves more special! Their Key to happiness:-)
What is yours??
Its been a long time ..ha, the same old fellow who is thinking of abandoning the idea of blogging is back!This time Captain wants me to stay a lil longer. And I love being Captain’s good girl! Hence ,trying to make a come back.
Today, as we were talking captain said this below lines. Couldn’t resist posting it here.
“If little things can make you happy, I count you lucky”. Indeed happiness is our choice!I really don’t want to forget these lines in my life ..ever! The small good things that we do are the best part of our life and that little things that makes us happy is what actually defines us.