LightUpThoughts

 

Last week I had a  conversation with one of my friend, about his ‘life story’! The conversation was short and died soon.But this idea of writing a book  and planning the chapters that to include in it stayed with me!.

So ,imagine you are writing your story !! Story so far!

When I say writing, I don’t literally mean it. But imagine this thing –At this point of time you decides to write to your Life story. There will be a hell lot of question that you will ask yourself!

• Discovering you,.childhood,education..How many  characters will have a lead role?
• What did you learn from your failures or does the 3rd chapter and 7 th carried the same mistakes?
• What is your secret key to success?the small and big ones u had..How you got up after falling down each time??
• Family ..Friendship..people
• The cazy things you did..Your weird part
• etc

More importantly what defines you? How you evolved? your confusions and conflicts within, your  search for  purpose of life ,Finding happiness and peace etc. And we know its not the number of chapters that we count, its the content within.

When I did this “Imagine you Life Story in a book” exercise I was initially fed up. I couldn’t find any interesting chapters or events in my life that is worth writing! Literally I have a plain story of doing schooling,graduation,job ,post graduation then again a job ..kind of!

But then one thing that keeps me going is the thought that “The real story is yet to come”.This one feeling  keeps me motivated and makes me do different things so that one day i would make a beautiful chapter out of it.Back then, all the initial years will be summed to a single chapter or may not be relevant at all.So think about it. What is your story??How many chapters have you reached so far?

Always remember no matter what, ultimately its YOU who is writing.

And if you are currently stuck at some chapter,always remember to move on..to make your big story!

I found i had many stories,with only its heading left in the drafts.Looking back i don’t remember them in its full flavor.I should have written those blogs at that time itself!sad!

I am a procrastinator ..who does a lot of it.Its again a sad thing!

I know that i am procrastinating…saddest of all!!

Then i just thought of giving the” Sad things ” a break and analyse..and i found

It is just a thought..You CHANGE it..It will change your life!!

 

To be very straight forward,i will be 27 this month and i still have no idea about what i really want to do in my life!I can say that i am still exploring about it or rather i am very confused about it.I really don’t have a dream that i am putting efforts to!It was the same from my 20s when i joined college.I am pretty lucky to have fortunate things in life,i do love my days..but then there is no such long term purpose in life for which i have spent sleepless nights.so finally i decided to take it up seriously..

I imagine myself as an individual with multiple dreams,aspirations,doubts and confusions..All tangled up wires!Now  when i sit down and command my brain to point out what i exactly want to do in my life,my brain acts bizarre!I end up with more confusions and this time a little sad,as i am realizing that i couldn’t figure out a dream for myself all this years.Or may i found many dreams that i never focused on one!

My mind come to rescue and we try to figure out what i don’t want to do in life.Now as i count on this,many wires gets untangled,many vanishes.Thinking a lot more on it made me realize what i should do in life to avoid those ‘dont’s in life’.This logic attracts me a lot and i am trying to go with it.

My pathway is not lighted,but i can see the spot at the end of the tunnel.Now that is what i really wanted.Something to start with..Now probably i can build on it!.As i start walking i will slowly explore..and this time no confusions!!

I had earlier written about this idea of “Thinking what you don’t want matters”.This thought is helping me a lot in confusions, demanding more attention.Hence picked it up again.

So,When you have no idea about ‘what you want to do’,start with trying to understand ‘what you don’t want to do’!Then You will find some clues,building on it ,you will find your DREAM.The real one.

That is the trick.

Thank you:-)

A friend of mine was shifting to a new city  for his first job, and few days before his travel when I asked him about the packing status  he replied “The Big trolly bag its done, and the back pack I need to fill it up with the memories”.

Memories??Memories of what kind,Any books? I asked

Its 3 notebooks and an old mobile phone and stuffs like that! Understanding that its not the proper time to go behind the stories in old notebooks and mobile fon I filled the conversation with another couple of questions.Later when I got a chance I asked him,”Whats the story with the old modile phone,why you are carrying it with you?”With a lil hesitation ,he replied that its because of the few memorable things in the mobile phone. From the conversation all I understood was seeing his notebook with memoirs, messages in phone, photographs and souvenirs invoked beautiful memories of his loved ones. And these memories are nothing but happiness to him and he lives with it. Will he forget them in the hurry burry as he starts living with the pace of new city,the bussiest one? Will he be still thinking about his memories when he have busy work schedules and other entertainments??I don’t know.But then if he ever feels lonely he has his recipe of finding happiness with those memories. mmh..I don’t know how many of us will ever find time to dive into memories, but those who do might be having a great time..

I remember another friend of mine who had a  frame  hanged  in his room with columns to keep pictures. In its left there was his favorite professor’s smiling image and on the other column lied Rumi’s quote -“Out beyond ideas of wrong doing and right doing, there is a field. I ‘ll meet you there.” Although the professor was no more here, his memories and the thoughts always stayed up with my friend. “That frame in my room radiates a lot of light” I have often heard this from him.Yes.. Indeed memories are a treasure ,aren’t they? They are special..it is the only place where we can cherish our loved ones who left to heaven. We do cry thinking of them, but in other hand their memories are inspiring and rejuvenating.

Good Memories of people, beautiful events and good things done is something that needs to packed and remembered.. They just radiate energy! In abundance!!

We all do have lot of them in our life,but then with time it goes into oblivion. Don’t Let it fade away. Pack them ..:-)Pack all those good memories and carry them where ever you go,and make yourself remember that you had a good life with beautiful moments in abundance.all those small and big events and gain inspiration from it to make a hell lot of them today!

lets do more good things today so that we will cherish them as beautiful memories tomorrow ..Before we die,lets have big trolly of looooooots of good memories!Can u just imagine yourself with a yellow skybag on wheels while walking all the way to heaven with angels??Haa..that’s to childish I know! Anyway ..lets Make more memories in our life that Lights up our mind!

 

It was around 7.30 pm  and we(3 girls) were walking back to hostel after the movie. What made us to walk instead of booking a cab or catching the metro? Our love for long walks,conversations and  lil craziness. It was around a 1 hour walk.Adding to our craziness it started to rain heavily!!The 2 umbrellas where of no use as the wind was whirling. But we didn’t had any problem,we sang songs laughed loudly, walked and reached the hostel on time. We really had a good day, long walks and conversations with your friends are one of the most beautiful things that can happen on earth. Both of my friends slept early that day and I was all by myself  on the corner space of our room ,staring at the stars through the window. I was having random thoughts in my brain and then I managed to hold them to do a  retrospective of the day that just went by.

I was rewinding the things that happened. The 3 musketeers and the night walk was a highlight.. What if one of us might had an accident? what if we were kidnapped, what if some electricity short circuit happens with the thunder ..what if we die on the way back while walking at night and the most terrifying thing was what if our parents come to know that we were doing this! All blame would be on us for our crazy idea of walking to hostel than booking a cab. Now I got lil scared with what we did before. Now I knew why one of my friend said that she never imagined that she would be walking at night through the streets enjoying the rain and wind like this.

Thank God nothing happened, but this thought kept disturbing me.Two things are scary 1. Something bad happening 2.Bearing the blame for something bad happened because we were in the so called ‘wrong time’ in the ‘wrong place’.

“Now that is really sad”I said to myself. Every time when some cruel and bad news comes up I say the same. I think of them in my prayers and to an extend will go for  protest asking justice for the victims. That is it. Sad

some where an inner voice was speaking “we all need to be a lil more good,kind and helping. Lil more good that our goodness gets reflected in our communities and our profession makes an impact.Lil more good that we accept  and respond to the social problems as ours before until it actually happens to us. Lil more good that we find time to teach our kids the same stories of being kind and helping each other. This world need more people to realise their goodness within, to shine and radiate their energy!”

mmh..That is true i thought.and the voice continued”Lets work for a world, where we wont be afraid of  war, getting robbed, kidnapped, raped or killed..A beautiful world where peace and happiness sustains.”

Lets walk watching the stars in the night sky ..Lets feel the rain and go with the wind and Lets not be afraid..

 

 

 

 

 

 

“Sun is brighter”

“Yeah..But i will be the Moon in your life”

“But Why Moon?”

“I can be there with you all the time.When it is dark,remember i am always there for you!”

“I love you sooo much Papa” the lil girl cried and hugged her dad.”I love you too..darling”he  lifted her in air and she smiled.

 

Many years later..when she faced any problems,confusions or trouble she preferred to sit alone.Her dad would always talk to her from heaven.His ideologies,thoughts and beliefs guided her well.

Some Promises are kept alive beautifully beyond our understanding.That is the power of love.That is the magic of Relationships.

Sun is brighter and makes us happy but fails to stay up with us all the time.But the moon may be invisible at times,but manages to be with us all the time being happy for us!

To all the Moons in our lifes..Thank you:-)

One afternoon she got a call from Amazon saying she has been selected for a surprise gift this month for being a regular purchaser from amazon(Thanks to her avid book collection, all bought online!).The customer care person from the other side explained her about the gift she has won! “You can choose from any of our 2 gifts madam”, he continued “Either a Laptop or a LED TV.” Soon came her reply in her soothing and happy sound “I don’t need any big gifts, Thank you for your time”. The customer care person at the other end was lil more surprised with her ‘NO’, not even a question about fraud check or further clarifications, he wondered! He tried to persuade her again, “We are offering this gift to only 2 customers and you are one among them”. listening patiently to him, she replied “If that was your product I would have considered, but Gifts..I don’t like to have it from others! I gift myself whatever I need everyday, and that’s the key to my happiness. Would you like to take away that?” she asked in a playful manner.”Sorry madam, have a good day”. She wished him back and disconnected the line!

We all BUY things for ourselves.. but Some people always GIFTS themselves whatever they need! and they have more ‘care’, ‘kindness’ and ‘love’ in their list than ours. Because they treat themselves more special! Their Key to happiness:-)

What is yours??

Its been a long time ..ha, the same old fellow who is thinking of abandoning the idea of blogging  is back!This time Captain wants me to stay a lil longer. And I love being Captain’s good girl! Hence ,trying to make a come back.

Today, as we were talking captain said this below lines. Couldn’t resist posting it here.

“If little things can make you happy, I count you lucky”. Indeed happiness is our choice!I really don’t want to forget these lines in my life ..ever! The small good things that we do are the best part of our life and that little things that makes us happy is what actually defines us.

 

What is the best thing that you can have in your life? Good People..

Yes! I think most of us agree with this! People shower  their love and blessings on you in very different ways. The way your parents, siblings,  partner,  children , friends  and colleagues love you cannot be compared..Infact I believe the concept  of “Love” is not very subjective…they cant be compared nor expected or estimated!We can only cherish them..and in that lies the whole energy of this universe..

Today is Christmas..And I want to thank Almighty God for the endless blessings he showers on me..For those n number of good people in my life.

Thank You:-)

This Society here, Adjust drunkards, who  creates horror in their home!

But this society cannot adjust a women drinking alcohol in public, she is tagged uncultured!

This society adjust a lot of rapists at home ,at school and in public!

They remain silent and even help them live a happy life!

And the same society here cannot adjust love marriages  & inter caste weddings!

If found,they are harassed and  murdered on the spot!

This society can adjust with the idea of dowry, although illegal

But still cant adjust with a women who decides to marry late!

This society can adjust breaking through traffic signals and rash driving,

But this society cannot adjust women driving late at night!

This society can adjust with farmers suicide every now and then,

But this society cannot adjust males helping  in the house hold chores!

This society can adjust eating chemicals in their veggies,

But cannot adjust a neighbour eating meat as per his wish!

This Society can adjust  self styled God-mans doing shits!

But cannot adjust a man growing his hair and beard in his fashion!

This Society Adjusts a hell lot of illegal violent and inhuman activities,

And this society cannot adjust with equality and true love!